BIRTHday

 Hello there!

   Tomorrow I will be completing my 18 years of life..yeah tomorrow's my birthday, finally I have reached the age which is considered as an adult in India. But the question is am I really an adult mentally? or like emotionally?

    

Honestly speaking I have came a long way in managing my emotions or else the reason I am now more emotionally strong is that I just don't care anymore. I just directly accept my fate now. Let's ignore this for now. Let's come back to the topic of BIRTHDAY.


Yeah so I am the first born to my parents. My birth was well appreciated by my family as I was the first girl unlike my younger sister whose birthday was treated as some kind of bad day(In my country having a boy is mandatory like talk about male dominating society.. My parents were happy for both of us, they didn't cared for the gender unless their child was healthy and safe. But let me tell you this bullshit society always had been crappy. More than my parents the relatives were pissed off that my sister was not a boy. I feel sympathy for them. But I love my parents for that they always stood up for us both saying that we both are enough for them and they don't need any boy..Now that my sister is little grown up the things are better with the relatives now. And if it was not, who really cares?)


Then again my first birthday was celebrated huge at my hometown and then I shifted to Pune with my parents and later after 7 years my younger sister was born. My parents were not really into celebrating my birthday but in 1st grade my uncle celebrated it with the children of my colony. And from then my birthdays were celebrated every year just with a little difference that now it was celebrated only in house like only the ones in the family will celebrate and eat the cake.


My friends never brought me cake until last year. And I don't think this it is gonna happen this year. Only my family will bring it for me.


To be honest I am not that much into celebrating the birthdays. Cause that's the day when everyone gives you attention. As a girl who barely gets attention in day to day life getting that much attention on a single day creeps me out. But I still appreciate the people who care to invest their few minutes in wishing me. But I love those people who are there for me on every day, not just my birthday..


Anyway, I think I need to stop here as I am little late on time. I just wish my 18 birthday goes peaceful, nothing else. Will write tomorrow if possible.



Until then take care.

Signing off,

the survivor


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